Love, Justine

The Loop 2024–Issue 2

P.4

“P.S. Positive News: the ‘Victory Garden’ at the Veteran’s Services Unit here at SCI Muncy grew and donated over 3,500lbs of produce to the Central PA Food Bank and the Culinary Arts class in the prison.”

Um…right…but they don’t give any fresh produce to the inmates, of course.

3/28/24

Thursday

12pm

Motorcycle, 

We’re waiting for lunch. It’s very boring here. Commissary comes tomorrow. I can’t wait for my radio. Thank you for working with Gem to get money to me. I appreciate it. It sucks to be here without money. I’ll try to make it last as long as possible. I hope you’re doing okay. I’m worried about not having a place to live anymore. I don’t want to be two hours away in a halfway house. I guess you can’t do anything about it.

8:30pm

Sometimes I want to scream

When the helplessness consumes me

Eating away at my soul with bared teeth

Blood dripping, chewing at my shredded psyche

Tearing at my bones

It doesn’t help to wonder why this happens

It helps to think of your big hands

And the way you reach out to touch me

Whenever I walk by

It helps to think of the rumble

Of your deep voice

And the way that you whisper

That you love me

To send shivers

Through my body

It helps to think of the way you

Open car doors, store doors

And the doors of my heart

It helps to think of you wrapping

Your whole body

Around me in a hug

And the sincerity

In your blue, pure eyes

When you say my name

Like it was always yours

To say

Love, Justine