Love, Justine

February 18th, 2025

Tuesday

11:25am

I talked to Tiger last night. 

She was a total asshole, but I was glad to talk to her anyway.

I’m going to break up with Motorcycle today. I don’t want to fake it anymore.

Zuko wrote me:

Hey Beautiful 🙂

I cannot get enough of you. I have so much fun when we’re talking and making up fucking ridiculous shit together. Lol 🙂I feel high. I’m high on you. It’s lovely. I don’t even care if you don’t get the plumage right, I’ll still marry you every day for the rest of my life, which is forever, cuz I’m immortal and all that. Good times and bad, rich or poor, sickness and health, even if you have tiny clusters of burgers on your ass 😛(Asperger’s). 

I love you.

I loved the lyrics you wrote. Who is it? Please don’t say Taylor Swift 🙂. I love feeling your hands on me. Thanks again for the massage, babe. And it was cute that you kissed me then, cuz it’s normal 🙂. I’m manifesting us being affectionate and lovey whenever the fuck we want. And a nice big bed for us to enjoy each other in. Kissing you as I walk you over to the bed, and pausing to take your shirt off. Smiling and kissing you some more while I run my fingers across your body, up your back, and unhook your bra 🙂. I kiss you down your neck and across your chest and pull your bra straps off your shoulders one at a time with my mouth. You pull my shirt over my head and wait for me to take off my sports bra. We kiss passionately as I carefully guide you down onto the bed and start kissing my way slowly down your neck…chest…Imma hang out here for a second… 🙂…and down your stomach. 

Let’s get your pants off.

You’re so fuckin’ sexy. 🙂

I kiss my way up the inside of your thighs and slide my fingers under your panties so I can get them off. We kiss some more cuz we can’t get enough of each other.

You stop so you can get my pants + boxers off too, so we can feel each other’s bodies pressed together.

You feel so fuckin good.

I need all of you.

We stare deeply into each others eyes + I whisper “I love you” + you whisper “I love you” back.

We kiss passionately while my hand explores your body carefully, gently, while I learn every part of you.

I kiss my way down your body again + run my fingers up your inner thigh. 

You are a Goddess, I worship you with my tongue.

Slowly at first, tasting all of you. 🙂

I take my time so you can get as much pleasure as possible before I focus on your clit, gently licking and sucking on it, driving you fucking crazy.

You’re moaning and breathing heavy, so I keep the same rhythm with my tongue and mouth and slide my fingers into you, which sends you over the edge. 

You pull me up to you cuz you need my body against yours, so I wrap myself around you before kissing you.

You’re beautiful and so fuckin’ sexy.

OK, so I manifest that. Feel free to also manifest some things. 🙂

I need dinner, + then meeting + freezing our asses off for meds, + then a little chill time before we have jobs. 🙁

I miss you, Sprout.

Thanks for telling me how to hold your hand. 

I love you + I don’t ever want to hurt you. 

February 18th, 2025

Tuesday

(Continued)

I wrote Zuko back: 

Those lyrics are from Ed Sheeran, I think. Sorry I’m not talkative today, I feel sedated. 

Need coffee. 

Got coffee. 

Feel more awake. 

You’re so fucking sexy, have I told you that yet today? And I love you, I forgot to let you know. I always want to be near you, and I love hanging out with you. You’re so funny. 

Here’s your lyrics for today–

“Please

Stay

I want you, I need you

Oh God

Don’t
Take

These beautiful things that I’ve got.”

–Benson Boone

Here’s my manifestation for today–you and me naked in a hot tub with or without a titch of wine. I think everything is funny. You think I’m ridiculous. The mood changes. We catch each other’s eyes. You bite your lip like you do, and your eyes slide down my body. I come over to you and wrap my legs around you, taking your face in my hands and kissing you passionately. I love your mouth on mine. I kiss your neck and face and whisper, “I love you,” in your ear. “Mmmmmmmmm…..” you say, and put your hands on my ass, bringing me closer. We keep kissing while I run my hands down your body. We can’t get close enough. “You’re so fucking sexy,” I say, finding your clit. I rub gently, you put your head back, I kiss all over your neck. “Let’s get outta here,” you say…

To Be Continued…

8:57pm

I broke up with Motorcycle. It went okay. At first he made it about money, of course, like I was using him the whole time. I said if that were true, I would just fake it and he could keep sending me money.

Fuck that.

Then he said he wanted me to “think about what I am doing,” and that he didn’t want me to go.

It was painful, but it was worth it.

I don’t love him anymore, and I’m not about to keep telling him that I do. Daisy, Martha, and even Zuko all told me to stay with him until I get all my stuff back, but I just can’t do that. I asked him if he wanted somebody to come pick up my stuff, but he said no. I told him I would pay him back all the money that I owed him.